Adjustments

I heard my best friend's voice over the phone and tears came to my eyes. I feel so alone, so removed and I just want to go home. Yet, that's not am option for me. I know it's not. This is where I need to be. School starts Monday, the distraction will help. I need to meet new people, connect with others, that will help too. I'm just so scared. I hate to admit it but I am. I also feel like I can't do this, like I'm not smart enough to be at this school. I'm doubting myself. If I were hearing myself I'd give myself the greatest pep talk, and tell myself that I'm smart and capable, but it just isn't enough. I just want to fast forward this part until the part where I'm happy again and loving what I'm doing. Once again, patience is key.