treadmill

Its thursday afternoon and Im at the gym. You guessed it, on the treadmill. I'm looking out the window at people wearing layers of clothing trying to hurry through to get inside a building. Beep beep. The treadmill wants me to put my hands on the bars to get my heart rate. To my right is this girl running crazy fast, I look like a grandma running next to her. To my left is some guy working out his arms. I forgot my ipod, so my brain is only being distracted by my thoughts. Not good. Fifteen minutes left. Beep beep. Again? Now I'm running even slower because apparently my heart rate is too high, somehow I doubt it has anything to do with my running. My head is on overdrive. I still can't get over the fact that I am here. I still wake up most mornings turn over in my bed and think, oh crap! I'm in Wheaton, Illinois! I've been here for like 5 weeks. In 3 weeks I'll be going home for spring break. I miss the sun. I have a new found love for the Florida sun, and to think that so often I got mad at it. I usually don't like running on treadmills. I don't like the fact that I can give it my all and go as fast as my body can handle, and still get nowhere. I much prefer running outside, but I'll pretty much die if I run outside in this weather, beside the gym is included in my tuition. Might as well. Life is slow here. Time goes much faster in Miami. There's also so much more to do over there. But I am here. I'm going to class, I'm reading, I'm writing papers. That is my existence here. I know that this is what I need to be doing at this point in my life, but why is it so hard for that to be OK for now? My Miami life was non stop, on the go. work, church, home, friends, life group, dogs, mission trips, files and the list goes on. 15 minutes are up, cool down for 5 minutes. cool down. I always used to skip the cool down part before, never liked it much, never had patience for it. To slowly decrease speed until you come to a stop. I'm going to do it. For the first time ever, I will do the cool down all the way, no matter how dumb it feels. There's a purpose for cool down isn't there? Its good for your body right? I just wonder what will I do, after the cool down? Should I go on the bicycle, should I workout a specific part of my body? I guess we'll see.